It’s Just the Intro

Welcome to the blog! Long story short, I have a bunch of thoughts in my head that need to come out, and a blog seemed like a good place for that. I don’t think I’m going to use my real name here, so maybe I’ll call myself Iridescent, unless I think of something better. This isn’t a secret blog, I’m planning to share it with people I know, but I’m not trying to build a personal brand here or anything fancy like that.

A little about me:

Over the last few years I’ve learned a few things about myself that are a big deal to me and have really changed my perspective and how I live my life. When I was 28, I was diagnosed with ADHD. This explained a lot! I learned a bit about how my brain works, I started on medication, and I became less anxious. About a year later, at age 29, I was diagnosed with joint hypermobility, which finally explained the intermittent pain and physical challenges I’ve experienced since childhood. I’ve had to make a lot of adjustments, but I’m learning how to manage better. I’m still getting used to the idea that I have a physical disability, but my life is better when I accept that about myself. About 4 months after that, still (barely) at the age of 29, I was diagnosed with autism. I thought the other two diagnoses were a big deal, but this one brought so many things in my life into sharp focus in a way I didn’t realize was possible. It turned my life upside down for a few months, both in good and bad ways.

I’m 31 now, and I think I’m finally starting to settle back into my new, adjusted sense of self. I still have a lot to discover about myself, but I feel like I’ve finally gotten my bearings, mostly. I have a better idea now how my mind and body work, and I’m starting to feel like I can figure out how to live the life I want to live.

About the blog:

I want to feel like people understand the real me, so I want to share some of these experiences here. I had a blog years ago and I’ve missed having that outlet. I plan to write about my hobbies and interests a little bit (sewing mainly, sometimes gardening and bees), what’s going on in my life, experiences I’ve had that I’m recontextualizing or processing in light of my new understanding of myself, my goals and aspirations, and the new things I try along the way as I try to figure out life. I want to share what it’s like for me being autistic, having ADHD, living with joint hypermobility, and managing my mental health (oh yeah, I also struggle with anxiety and trauma, but that’s old news for me). Writing out my thoughts helps me process them and lets me communicate things I can’t always say out loud.

About the name “An Iridescent Mind”:

Yes, the name is a bit silly! It’s the best I could come up with that fit what I want to talk about and wasn’t taken already. (If you have a better idea you want to give me for free, I’m open to suggestions. Seriously, I spent weeks trying to come up with something, and this is all I’ve got.) Why An Iridescent Mind? For the obvious bit, a fair amount of what I anticipate writing about has to do with my brain, the way I think, and the way I process things. I settled on iridescent because of my deep love of intense color and my fascination with the way things shift and change when you look at them from different perspectives. It’s a metaphor for how I think and what I’m trying to do here, but it’s also a very literal reference to how deliciously stimmy iridescent color is to me. I suppose visual stims and color will have to be one of the things I write about at some point! Part of the point of my journey is that I’m trying not to worry so much about presenting a particular way and just accept myself the way I am, so right now that means being fine with naming my blog something weird.

Posts about things to follow soon, I hope!